It is so crazy to think that a year has already gone by since Grandma Jean passed. I think about all of the emotions that I have gone through during the course of this year. When she first passed, I knew she was in a better place and I felt a bit of a sense of relief that her pain was gone. As the year progressed, certain things reminded me of her and I was constantly reminded of how my day-to-day life changed dramatically because she was gone. I used to take runs to my grandparents house because it was one of my excuses to see them. I also found reasons to just stop by for no reason. The hardest part of this year was not having her there to open presents with on Christmas day. I have so many childhood memories with Grandma Jean on Christmas every year that I think celebrating Christmas without her this year was the most difficult "first" without grandma.
Instead of thinking about her last year on this earth and how difficult it was for all of us, I am choosing to think about the incredible woman that she was during the course of her life. She was ahead of her time in the sense that she went to college and created a great life for herself. She always showed me by example what it meant to show love to the people that you care about. She never said, "I love you" but she had an amazing way to show it which is just as important. She had an amazing sense of humor and I will miss that everyday. I hope that she is up there celebrating a great year in heaven with my grandpa over a stiff scotch and some popcorn. Afterall, that was one of their favorite things to do together. Love you grandma...I am one lucky grandchild to have a grandparent that was as actively involved in my life as a parent. As grandma would always say, I love you doll....byebye.
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